I started life as an unwanted, unloved orphan. Before the age of 2 years old, I was moved around to at least 3 to 4 different places, an orphanage to foster care, to live with none of them feeling like home. I have known lovelessness, a vacuum of love. It felt like hell. So I have known hell, and believe me, you do not want to go there.
Because of this lack, I was left feeling like I was a mistake, that I did not even deserve to exist. My adopted family did go to church, and there I would hear them say ‘God does not make mistakes’. For a long time I did not understand what they were talking about. As I got older and got to know God and Christ better, I understood at last they were talking about me. I was no mistake. I am not a mistake. God loves me and you and you and you. We are not mistakes. All our lives matter to God the same which is very, very much, in the extreme and more than I can comprehend.
At some of my dark times, I would feel like I was in the middle of a strong storm and the only thing to hold onto was the cross of Christ. That proved to be my anchor. I knew that Christ would not have died for me if I did not have an extreme value to Him. His life down here on this earth and His sacrifice gave me a sense of worth and value. His love may go deeper and wider than we can understand, but it’s there.
I hope and pray that you can come to understand this deeply personal and intimate love of the living Christ. We are his passion, you and I. Won’t you let him love you into Paradise today! Praise God!!!