Everywhere but in the Right Place

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America has become such a blessed place. We have an overabundance of physical wealth, but it is becoming almost more of a curse than a blessing. People rushing everywhere after the things in the malls, the big houses, the big cars not realizing these things will never satisfy the deepest longings of their hearts and spirits. There is a website called Disney World Junkies. These are people addicted, very caught up in going to Disney World. Kept in the right perspective, there is nothing wrong with Disney World, but it is an artificial environment and only fantasy. We look in the wrong place when we look for fulfillment in the temporary things of this world.

We are after all spirits only temporarily going through this physical human experience, and I do mean temporarily. As I have said before, I have already had an aggressive form of cancer two times. The destiny for this physical shell we all travel in for now is death, the grave. It is going to rot and still we refuse to listen to the voice of our Creator, the living God and His son Jesus of Nazareth.

God is constantly trying to call us to Himself. The churches make Him too small, and God is not small. He is so beautiful, stupendous, magnificent, magnanimous, glorious and majestic that our small human words do not even begin to come close to describing Him. Everyone needs to read Lee Strobel’s books The Case for Christ and The Case for A Creator. They are wonderful in describing how man can see God just by looking at the beauty and complexity of the world and universe around him.

I pray you can get to know your Creator better for yourself. He loves you completely, totally and perfectly. We’re never out of His thoughts. I pray He will bless your day and life. Praise God!!

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After Seven Years. . . Finally!!

After seven years of being run down and sick from two rounds of surgeries and chemotherapies for cancer, I finally, finally got to ride my bike on our beautiful greenway system we have where we live. It meanders along a river and even through an old civil war battlefield. There are a few small waterfalls along the way. A number of spring wildflowers were in bloom and long the riverbanks you could see the remains of large, ancient trees.

Life can be difficult, but with the grace, mercy and strength of God we can persevere. Sometimes you just have to lean into Him really intensely.

Our family has had a very difficult ten years. It started out with moving out of our family home we had lived for twenty-seven years which was stressful in itself. Only a few months after that our daughter went through an unhappy divorce. Not long after that she met someone else and married them which was a happy event. Only a few months after the marriage she came up pregnant with our first grandchild, a beautiful little boy, Baric, another happy event, but within his first year we could tell something was wrong. He was not developing the way he should. Three months after his birth, my daughter became pregnant again.

While she was pregnant with our second grandchild, Baric was diagnosed as being autistic. Only two months after that diagnosis, I was diagnosed with Stage 2 breast cancer and immediately had surgery and a year of chemotherapy. Four months after my cancer diagnosis, my son-in-law’s father was diagnosed with inoperable lung cancer. Unfortunately, he died within the year.

While I was on chemotherapy, my wonderful granddaughter, Rylan, was born. I got to come off all the drugs. My daughter moved to another town for my son-in-law’s job, and because we love being close to our only child, we also decided to move close to them to help with our grandchildren.

But it happened again. Right after we sold our condominium and during the process of moving my cancer came back for a second time. We moved on one day, and four days later I was back in surgery. Again, I had to have chemotherapy, not quite as much but still more drugs. I, of course, made it through. Whew, that was a lot in ten years!! It makes me tired to think of all of it.

If it had not been for my faith and closeness to the living God, I could not have made it through nor could any of my family. I’m so grateful to still be able to help with the children. May God show you today in this day the same love, mercy and grace that He has just shown us. Praise God, Christ and the Holy Spirit!!!!

For B. Micah

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Here is my beautiful grandson, Baric Micah. He looked like a little angel the day he was born. He had this perfect skin, golden hair and big blue eyes, but as his life progressed, at the age of 1.5 years we knew something was wrong. A few months later he was diagnosed with autism. Unfortunately, he will never be very high functioning. The whole family loves him so very, very much.

When God wants to test you, He can really test you. Our family received a diagnosis of his autism, my cancer and my son-in-law’s father’s cancer all within about 5 months. Unfortunately, his father succumbed and died later that year. But God is good. Baric is getting therapy, I am doing well after two rounds of cancer treatments, and we know that my son-in-law Jamie’s dad is with Christ because he was a follower and believer in Jesus.

Here is a poem I wrote about Baric. He at times is communicative with us and at others lost in his little autistic world.

Golden Boy
(For Baric)
What do you see
As you laugh upward
Into a sunny sky?
I sit nearby, guessing
At what flies before your face.

I sit, watching, listening as you
Play enthralled by what only,
Privileged as you are, is revealed
To you, my child.

Squealing, laughing, giggling
You jump and play.
Has Heaven opened its gates to
Dance only for you today?

Do angels wave and shout in joy
At the foot of His golden throne
Just for you alone?
Do heavenly creatures entertain you,
but by us mere mortals unknown?

I sigh heavily,
Wishing I could see and be
just as you!

 

Name that Conquers All

 

According to my adoption records I was a sensitive child. I once had an elder of a church say he thought I was a spiritually sensitive person. I know it has been a blessing in my life. I know in this world, especially in our very wealthy, money oriented culture that is so in love with ourselves, money, possessions, and pleasure, we have a tendency to deny or neglect the spiritual aspects of our lives. We are truly spirits only temporarily connected to our physical shell.

I have had several supernatural experiences, and what I guess I’m trying to lead up to is I have had three encounters with demons, very dark creatures.

The first happened many years ago when I was going through a very dark time in my life but trying to draw closer to Christ and God and the Holy Spirit. I woke up one night and a dark mass felt like it was laying on my chest. I was afraid and all I could think to do was say “In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, be gone.” It immediately was gone, left.

The second encounter was when I was on my first round of chemotherapy for my breast cancer. I was sleeping in an old recliner and suddenly woke up. I looked down and this dark person was laying on top of me. It looked up at me, smiled a perverted smile and asked, “Susie, what are you trying to do with this book.” I naturally was frightened but again said, “In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, be gone.” Within a heartbeat, it was gone. I was at the time working on a novel which I have finished which was about the useless divisions within our Christian churches or denominations we have created.

The third experience came about a year ago. I am still suffering fatigue from all the cancer treatments. One night I was awake, and a very dark man was in the room with me suddenly. I said, “In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, be gone.” He said to me, “No, it doesn’t work that way.” I immediately yelled for a second time, “Oh yes, it does. In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, be gone.” And he disappeared instantaneously.

Praise you Lord Jesus for the beauty of your face, your great and loving heart and also for your wonderful power and authority over everything in creation. Bless you Lord!! Thank you for your salvation from Satan.

God is so good and only wants to share all His wonderful glory with us. Won’t you let Him save you today.

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As I have said in an earlier blog, the main reason I started this blog was to testify of some experiences I had had with God. I would like to testify before I have to leave this earth. I have already had an aggressive form of cancer two times and am currently in remission. If God can become more real for you then that is what I hope and pray can happen through this.

I’ve told earlier of some of my childhood troubles, the devastation I went through from being an orphan. I was going through a very dark time in my adulthood. I have always had trouble with anxiety, sometimes very severe anxiety and have all my life had trouble with nightmares because of this.

As I was going through this difficult time, my anxiety level went up high, and the nightmares increased. One night I woke up in tears, crying, from one dream. As I laid in bed trying to get control of myself, the sensation of someone physically gently caressing my head started at the top of my head and went down the back to the top of my neck. At the time I felt no fear. A thought ran through my mind. It was an angel trying to comfort me.

I know in this modern, humanistic age where we glorify man above everything else a belief in the supernatural is discouraged and even laughed at. But God is real and is still in control of His universe. I’m just grateful to Him for allowing me to learn about Him and for His love that reaches down to comfort us in our time of deepest need. May He bless your day today. Praise God!!!

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A Dance

 

Early this morning, God gave me another impression, or vision, no matter what word you want to use for it. He has been so kind to me. I think possibly because of how devastating my childhood felt. He has the kindest heart in all of creation and existence.

I was already awake. I have just come off of five years of cancer treatments in which I have had to have several major surgeries. My surgical site is still a little sore, and this wakes me up at night sometimes. I was awake, and I could hear the tune to a waltz running through my mind. God gave me the impression of dancing with Him in a small ballroom. There were a few other people there. We were dancing on the dance floor. I was dressed in a long, but simple white dress. My hair which is naturally dark was more of a blonde color and held back in one long braid. He just kept dancing me around the room. The room was edged by columns and full of light. I could feel this deep sense of peace, wholeness completeness. It was wonderful!

I woke up with still the same deep sense of peace. I do not know why people do not want to believe that somewhere in the universe is someone that wants to love them that deeply and completely. Why would you not want to believe in a beautiful, wonderful loving Heavenly Father? That has always mystified me.