I came into the world as an orphan from birth with nothing, no mother, no father, no love. I was traumatized and abused both. They said I was a highly sensitive child so maybe it impacted me more than someone else. I remember only fear and terror. I was suicidal a few times, but God stays close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18. Here is a poem I wrote about my experiences. Hope you enjoy. Praise God!!!
Spit Out Into Hell
Alone, wet, cold
Shivering into the wall,
I try to fade, pushing
Into the emptiness inside,
This, an unending terror.
I crouch, attempting to avoid
The inevitable. Knowing it
Will come. Survive, survive,
Gritting the teeth
Hanging on, hoping
reprieve will come
Someday.
Despair, hopelessness
dragging. So worthless,
I deserve only
this joyless existence?
Looking up I scream
someone explain this
Why?
Until a light breaks in,
A gentle presence
Fear brought no longer
a feather-soft presence
ever over my head
hidden, between us only
a thin veil of sky.
Feelings stir
Leaving Hope.
Do Not Give Up.
I AM here.
A Wind lifts
Releasing, removing pain.
Strong, a glowing light
Shines down into
my interior.
A living God, a living
Son.
Wonder of wonders
He wants Me!
Joy begins, grows
Becomes stronger
Passion and Praise flow.
New Life Is Created.
So if I can endure
So can You.
His life can exist
Inside of you.
Remember, loving He spread out
His arms
On a wooden beam.
Death juxtaposed on top of
LIFE!
Strange but I believe
Eternally True.
an answer to the
WHY.
HE can use anything, pain
sorrow
To bring you closer to
joy.
and in the darkness give you
Himself.
SoulSails 